It all started 10/26
Back then beautiful bliss
That date still etched deep in my skin
But now it's gone, your siblings, your love, and all of those pinky kept promises
Back home we meet again one more time, by your house in the wretched night
Now I say choose
I pick you
I guess you did too

Our last goodbye, (I thought we could weather this)
You hurt me again this time

Now
They won't know us as exceptional
We drowned just like the rest
And unknown we'll be, my voice
held in contempt, our silent seas

Early relationship, I loved you more than you me
This became toxic but I don't regret it
I swam for you but i had to unhook the anchor or sink with this ship
Us didn't make me happy in the end

I heard you scream, you tantrum taking child, grow up you creep
(How's this so easy for you?)
Cause you're an explosion, stop thinking of me
I know you're sorry, you're always sorry but that doesn't mean anything

No
We weren't exceptional, you held too close to your ideals and my old self
Now let me go, stay away from my home, I won't be soaked by your laments

Fine, if that's what you want
Hope you can accept we might never speak again
And now I'm alone, standing uncomfortable
I lost my sign, my favorite friend

(You gave me your fan and it cut me up)
You got what you wanted,
Me when you needed me and away when you didn't

Without you
Nothing's the same
Where are you? Did you get home safe?
"Give me love", I begged
But you ignored my last refrain

“What do you want”
The last words you remember hearing from her mouth
From far away, she pronounced the space to further disassociate herself with you
“Goodnight have a good semester”
Was her exit statement
Where she revealed that she is done with you and all you represent
Poems, apologies, love
They all mean nothing
In her eyes you are your absolute worst

And from there you begin to nervously tread through the next stage of your life
Where she chooses to fly is of no concern to an ocean dweller

Lay down
Dispel your distress
You’re only gonna cry if she gets to you
Breathe slow
It isn’t complex
You’ll forget her and move on eventually

The screamer who stole her first year away
Self-loathing forced her tears near the laundry room for all to see

Your psychotic self took over and attempted to control
her consumption and what the hell did you think was a good idea about that
Think about all you kept her from because you couldn’t admit you had a problem
And you did have a problem
She was the only thing that could make you happy
And you thought she was all you had
Solace from the depths that will never cease to drag you down
But a burden to a person so precious to you
Despite your friends continuing to tear her apart
claiming that you were better off
While you still weren’t able to fault her
You never wanted to fault her but she ended up giving you a reason to
What you wanted was to see your friend one more time as she was
With no hesitation she unveiled her worst to you, condemning your actions, leaving you with one final impression

Guess what?
She doesn’t give a damn about your worst anymore
But her’s is the only thing capable of setting you free
And you’ll find that the sea has so many places to venture as soon as you learn to let her go

I want you back, I want to let you go
I want you out of my head

"Give a little time to me or burn this out
We'll play hide and seek to turn this around
All I want is the taste that your lips allow
My my
My my"¹

Severed these ties, our connection
You had a chance to keep me close but you failed
Your gravest mistake, you won't find much better than me
Your future loves will be fake and unfulfilling

I'm forever far away from you
But I learned what’s further is just closer to something else
Someone else

You're finally done to me and I'm keeping your fan and cutting you out

I'm the grace you'd end your days with
I am your nostalgic places
I won't be bound by your limits
Your last drink may lift, but it's nothing compared to me

Your new life's basic. It is nothing compared to me

She’ll listen to all I say
And respond, never nod, invested in me
She’s a night owl too and a walker
Hates silence and a good text partner
She’ll love my friends and I’ll love hers too
Never an intrusion just part of the group
Comfort in dark moods
Understanding when blue
I’ll never feel alone
She’ll care far more than you

Now we're done
It seems you have won
You don’t care for what I say or who I’m with

But maybe those thoughts do scare you and you want me back in your life again
If that's the case then stay cast out or darling fucking fight for me

¹Ed Sheeran - "Give Me Love"
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